My Vices are My Friends.

Oh, the infinite IT.

Jack Kerouac talks about it, we all are looking for it, that infinite IT. It's different for everyone, but we all know what it looks like for us. Good luck finding IT. I think I'm pretty close.. Life is good!

Yum.

I'm actually shocked that I don't know French inside and out simply based on the fact that Louis Garrel is such a babe. What will I ever do when we meet face-to-face and fall in love? Language aside, he's also in my favorite movie of all time - The Dreamers.

Love. Love. Love.

Now I'm not usually one for celebrity crushes, but he does embody everything that I find attractive so I will jump on that bandwagon just for this post...

I want this shirt so much!!

Kerouac

"They have worries, they're counting the miles, they're thinking about where to sleep tonight, how much money for gas, the weather, how they'll get there - and all the time they'll get there anyway, you see. But they need to worry and betray time with urgencies false and otherwise, purely anxious and whiny, their souls won't be at peace unless they can latch on to an established and proven worry and having once found it they assume facial expressions to fit and go with it, which is, you see, unhappiness, and all the time it flies by them and they know it and that too worries them to no end. Listen!"

I just stared out my window for the past 20 minutes watching the snow...

and it's so chaotic.

My parents are making some huge decisions right now about their careers and life, and it's pretty terrifying.. They are both in their 50s and making decisions that affect their lives have huge consequences and possible benefits.. It's causing me to think about my own life decisions and future career choices. I need to take steps now to guarantee stability and success in the future. The idea of success to me right now is living and working in a beautiful hotel in Montreal, speaking both french and english professionally and having the means to travel and live well (which includes a loft in Old Montreal and an extensive wine bar). But so much can happen between now and then, and it's hard to stay motivated when in school with younger, less driven people who are still deciding what they really want to do. Learning french is also hard to do while taking 8 classes and having extensive homework. I have been able to meet with some people for a 'language exchange' some nights a week, which has worked well and has been free! Hopefully I can keep it up.

Anyways I guess the point is - life is extremely chaotic, just like the snow outside my window right now... but it's also incredibly intriguing and beautiful. And I love it - sometimes.  :)

Take me back!!

I made some duck confit tonight and watched this french prankster on youtube and it's really making me miss my time with my french friends and my time in France! So many good memories, but so sad that they are over :(   

I love french culture. I think I should have been french for sure.

I.love.it.

Yesssssss...

..Another roomie wine-drinking, cigarette-smoking, philosophy-filled night!! It feels like it's been ages since we've had a night like this. I have a test tomorrow, but I just got back a 97% on another test I recently did so I'm feeling pretty ok about my capabilities! Although I'm sure I'll regret saying that during the six hours of classes tomorrow..

When we’re incomplete, we’re always searching for somebody to complete us. When, after a few years or a few months of a relationship, we find that we’re still unfulfilled, we blame our partners and take up with somebody more promising. This can go on and on—series polygamy—until we admit that while a partner can add sweet dimensions to our lives, we, each of us, are responsible for our own fulfillment. Nobody else can provide it for us, and to believe otherwise is to delude ourselves dangerously and to program for eventual failure every relationship we enter."

Tom Robbins (via scout)