Hmm I am a difficult person to date, I think. Or it's difficult to convince me to date. In my whole history of men, (it's not that long, calm down) I've only actually felt intense love and desire towards two people. One was high school, and therefore I question the validity of my knowledge of love at that time. The other took me by complete surprise and led to my moving to Europe for six months. I have never regretted spending the time and emotion on either of those people. The times that I do regret, however, are the times I tried to care about someone.. when I was 'playing the field' and going on dates with multiple men at once. I feel guilty because at the time I knew that I didn't like any one enough to settle down and date only them.
However, we, as human beings, genuinely need emotional connection. And it's not enough to have good friendships; we need opposite sex emotional connection. I think this is what led society into the state it's in now. Humans, being selfish, choose every day to put their own needs in front of other's. I admit I do it often. We actually desire to feel love for someone, but because that doesn't always happen, we use people under the guise of intimacy.
It's confusing, empty, and unsatisfying. Especially in January/February. I guess the only thing to do is to live for ourselves and our friendships, and try to be selfless. And love.
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